Sunny


Dearest blog.
Sorry for not updating you last weekend...
As i m being employed to do something else.
Well, maybe not "employed" as i m not being paid. *SAD*

Okay, not to side tracked....
I actually forgot what i wanted to blog about. >_<
Guess my life is too dull and nothing impressive or interesting happened ... ?


Okay but something upsetting did happened and i did not tell many people.
as i m afraid that i might turn out groomy or teary in front of others when we talked about it.
i cannot take it when ppl start to console me and give the " i m so sorry for u " look... it doesnt help me but makes me more upset ... so i prefer texting n not face to face ...
*Take a deep breathe*










One of my cute little hamster actually past away ...!


Couldn't believe it...

Do you know how long i have been keeping it?

3 weeks ...
Only 3 weeks and she die of dunno what illness or virus =(

I am pretty upset by it.

The last time i saw her still healthy and active was last last saturday.

She still look very chubby and active...

fighting with her sister for food....

and then suddenly on the very next day

she became so restless & sleepy...

not moving around at all for the whole sunday. -.-

i was a little doubtful too ...
but wasn't cautious at all. I was think" well, maybe she's just to tired? or always get bullied by her sister? "
as there's no sign of her being sick or uncomfortable.


And then on monday...
Sleepy as well....
and i saw her not eating much... feels abit weak.




and me being so kan chiong , fearing that if i leave her at home with another 1 will caused fights or being the victim of being step on again, decided to
bring her to work and visit a vet .


Visiting the vet definitely lessen my worries ... as the vet said that she looks okay and nothing is wrong. and she prescribed a medicine for her - helps to boost her immune system to fight bacteria


and so i went back home, separated them both and fed her with med after ensuring she gets her meal.

TUe... SHe looks better
Separated her with gua gua and onl let them play arnd for a few hours before i sleep.
I think there some kind of bond between them. ( they have been playing n sleeping tgt since the day i gt them... keeping warm by sleeping side by side , etc)They look so happy to be tgt again ... and i felt bad for separating them. But to protect Huahua from being stepped on again, i have to keep 2 of them in different cage.

Wed... Looks okay too but she's having diarrhea.
The very first thought i had was the medicine.
maybe she doesnt like the medicine?
but anyway, the vet say feed her till it finished.

so i had to give it to her as usual

Thur morning...
looks normal and she still eat as usual .( i have the habit of watching them while i do my makeup in the morning. and feed them before i left for work)


And den in the afternoon,
my sis told me thAT huahua 's diarrhea is getting bad... o.o"
i called the vet and check if the medicine will caused diarrhea and they said no...
and persuded me to give her as usual.


Evening: when i got home she is VERY weak.
I have no idea why .... =(
she's like having jelly legs .. wobbling here n there and den lying down with her heart pounding hard. * heart ache*


i immediately took her out and placed her in a smaller box to rest and fed her with some water... but she doesnt eat or drink...


that night she even slept beside me...

i was like monitoring her every now and then...
to see if she's still breathing....
as i know deep inside
she couldn't make it thru the night...


and as i expected..
i woke up suddenly at 4am that night and found that she was dead .

my heart sunken but din really want the people arnd to behave the same way too
so being strong and actting to be normal is what i can do .... so i just informed them in the morning when they woke up and telling them... " THAT 's Life" =(



till now i m still afraid to tell my friends or colleagues about huahua's death.
As i know that, right now i m still not ready to say it out without feeling sad and tear.
( -.-" i actually cried last saturday after work when one of my colleague asked me how's huahua... and i told him she passed away 1 day ago.... Lucky only 3 person left -.-")

through blog, in case anyone of u still read...
i hope you dont ask or say anything to me in places like fb?
i m scared of being question and ppl will start asking me "why" ," what happen " when i m not okay yet.


maybe some of u might think that... walao only 3 weeks
need to be so sad or not....
some people even laughed at me when they know that i brought her to the vet...

but i think afterall
i m her owner, i have the duty to take care n treat her when she is unwell..
at least i tried my best to save her when she is unwell?


and since day 1,
i think me and my sis spent too much time watching them .. *haha*
thats why we feel sad that one of them just left like that...

Haiz....
Till Now we still cannot understand what is the cause for her death... why she so fragile!!?
Just hope that she can rest in peace.


Everything is unpredictable
especially on things dealing with life and death.
So perhaps we must be thankful that we are still healthy and living.
Cherish everything and everyone you have.









Anyway, tomorrow is 06 oct 2011.
It's exactly 1 month after gj left.
Haha Seems fast yet so slow.



its 11.15pm!
i need to sleep...
will post more cute photos of my "used to be two " hamster photos when i m free.


sayournara.