Monday, July 7, 2014

Long vacation

Dear blog, 

How have you been? It's been ages since I last logged in here. 
Oh Well, guess it's time to vacuum the dust & cobweb and start blogging again 7/7/2014 ( such a gd date to remember)! 
Put aside the dusting part, I  believe those of you who are closer to me would already know that I had recently left my previous job! Ok, not really recently. It's been one freaking month! How time flies! 

I m a free loader at home now !@#$%^&** 
Hahaha, don't take it seriously okay!! I am still giving  my mommy the monthly allowance despite me not having income anymore. 
.... looking really upset when I see my money in bank account declining each day !!!!! My hard earned money............ All the blood and sweat plus tears.......  * wipe off my tears and continue blogging*



In case you guys were wondering how I have been doing all these while and what am I going to do after I left my previous job.

Point no. 1
 I am  physically fine... Healthy and fighting ... Perhaps getting a bit more 肥 as compared to the last time you saw me??? * self assumed* . I am proud to announced that I weigh 42.5 kg now! Whahaha .. Like finally ..... I have been stucked in 39-40 kg body for so many years. Anyway, my height is 162 cm, so if you ask me what's my ideal weight ? I would say 44-45kg? Anything beyond that, I guess I might suffer from mental breakdown for一发不可收拾 and being too fat. 

Okay, point no. 2
Yup, I left my job due to some personal reason which I would not like to share ( dont bother asking me too) and also because I wanted to take this opportunity to take a short break. 

In any case that you people thought I am those kind who sits in office and shake legs, I am not.  When it comes to work, I become a workaholic.  I am also super stubborn - yeah that's the famous traits for being a Taurus. Okay, I might be dumb in a way too. In order to meet my targeted date lines, I can worked over office hours  until a point of time that I really cannot Tahan then I stopped. Sometimes because of 死爱面子or 太有骨气,when I am angry I will purposely do more and do it myself to prove or show people that even if you don't help, I can also do it! 

But I am getting old ( sad.... ) and was tired of having OT . At times when I m over stressed, I Could easily drown myself with the tears I shed or worst still,  getting angry and thought to myself  " what the hell am I doing? Why am I wasting so much of my youth , OT -ing my life away! When everyone around me is shouting " YOLO YOLO" 
( is this a valid reason for taking a break????)

I couldn't say I dislike being an engineer ( totally). 
After all, I  had fun and learnt a lot from the past 4 years. ( just that my gold fish memory made me forget things that I learnt way too fast) 
I too have  the "sense of satisfaction and pride " for being an engineer.  
Especially, when I get complete one submission or whenever I gave the QP tonnes of AC comments in RED. Hahaha I know, sound like some sadist. But, maybe I just enjoy pointing out people's mistake??? One site engineer once told me that I m too meticulous in work.  

IN CONCLUSION, I like the job but still lack of passion. Er.... the passion of becoming a professional engineer??? Maybe a more sengnang ( relaxing ) engineering job will be great??? Hahaha my wishful thinking... 


I am just like a 无头苍蝇  flying here and there searching for " I don't know what I m searching" but still dying to find something 


Seriously, wtf* right? 



Anyway, WISH ME LUCK ..... Luck in everything! 




-.- a super blur picture taken by my ex colleague showing off to me that he has taken over my old seat.  And his caption for the photo was " your work desk  is a history"  -.-"""""

Good bye my work station for the pass 4 years (:  I will find another good one someday sometime... 






Sunday, February 23, 2014


The snow glows white on the mountain tonight 
Not a footprint to be seen 
A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I'm the queen 
The wind is howling like the swirling storm inside 
Couldn't keep it in, heaven knows I tried 

Don't let them in, don't let them see 
Be the good girl 
You always had to be 
Conceal, don't feel 
Don't let them know 
Well, now they know 


Let it go 
Let it go 
Can't hold you back anymore 
Let it go 
Let it go 
Turn my back and slam the door 
And here I stand, and here I'll stay 
Let it go 
Let it go 
The cold never bothered me anyway 


It's funny how some distance 
Makes everything seem small 
And the fears that once controlled me 
Can't get to me at all 
Up here in the cold thin air 
I finally can breathe 
I know I left a life behind but I'm too relieved to grieve 

Let it go 
Let it go 
Can't hold you back anymore 
Let it go 
Let it go 
Turn my back and slam the door 
And here I stand 
And here I'll stay 
Let it go 
Let it go 
The cold never bothered me anyway 

Standing frozen in the life I've chosen 
You won't find me, the past is all behind me 
Buried in the snow 

Let it go 
Let it go 
Can't hold you back anymore 
Let it go 
Let it go 
Turn my back and slam the door 
And here I stand 
And here I'll stay 
Let it go 
Let it go 
The cold never bothered me anyway

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

When I m rushing my work" quietly " .. Nobody knows.. The funny thing is they can even ask me what I'm doing? By the time  I start to grumble & frown is when the date line is drawing closer & closer . + more n more " extra " stuff  came in.. I frown not because I can't accept it or I can't take the sudden stress.. I have been rushing all along. I just felt that I m always alone ... Ppl can tell me not to worry blah blah .. we all work as a team but still, I m alone .   
 Of cuz, 
I know that I m not the only one that's busy.. But I still need a space to complain in order to make myself feel better.  

Saturday, November 9, 2013

When sharing with you all my unhappiness , I  still feel upset (esp when  I dig out things that I don't want to rmb) But seem like sleeping is more impt to you huh? I guess You Dont Feel what I feel . 

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Just trying to write a post with my new iPad mini (:

Well, the screen is definitely bigger and easier for typing but I can't adjust my photos in my entry... :( or giving my photos any caption...

Anyone has any idea on how to do it? !?



Anyway this yr vday let me introduce u my new family member ...


Lulu...

This name was not given by me... The florist shop named it. Teeheeehee...













Sunday, January 27, 2013







思想感情受外界事物的影响而激动,引起同情或向慕


对人或事有深挚的感情:喜爱。爱慕。爱情。爱戴。爱抚。爱怜。爱恋。爱莫能助(虽同情并愿意帮助,但力量做不到)。友爱。挚爱。仁爱。厚爱。热爱。


心理欲望得到满足时的状态。 一种持续时间较长的对生活的满足和感到生活有巨大乐趣并自然而然地希望持续久远的愉快心情。


新的一年要到了,希望2013年是一个充满 爱、感动 与 幸福的一年!喔。。。不忘我最爱的许愿词"万事如意和心想事成"!

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Saturday, January 19, 2013

asus ultrabook s46c

yeah....im blogging with my new laptop right now.
hmmm so far so  good... still trying to familiarize myself with the windows8.
pretty interesting that as there's many apps for me to explore...
hope its really my cheapest yet best laptop ever..(:


Monday, December 31, 2012

2013 is coming

2012 12月21日 的世界末日始终没有到来。我还在这里 吃饭睡觉做功 睡觉。
去年的今天我人在剑桥。一个人在房间等他回来。等着等着、忽然就觉得很寂寞很想家。于是就偷偷的哭了。
原来有家人在身边真好。
不过还好,他在晚上还没过年时,赶回来了。还做了几道菜给我吃。感觉蛮感动的。。。
今年的今天我在公司加班(虽然说是半天)不过工作tmd多、我也tmd慢。最后又呆到八点才觉悟。最近只得到了肩膀颈项酸痛,也这样错过了美好的假期和周末 。还是回家陪家人好了。
是我考虑太多吗?还是我太怕失败或做错?导致我自己做什么事都想太多或担心太多。总觉的时间不够。好想要完蛋了。不过老板好像不是很紧张或在乎、让我觉得蛮无助。haiz..
昨天晚上临睡前我们又闹的不愉快了。本来想早睡,最后又因为有不愉快没人听,对方也很厉害让还没把话说完的我给shut 掉,所以只好自己写了一大堆东西把难过和不愉快 和心里话写出来。不过写完,今天转发给对方后也没有得到回应。每次让我觉得我是不是在打给空气看。

虽然结果也没讲什么 不过后来我忽然想到我会不会也像Jocelyn 姐姐一样,也变成一个剩女。yeah 不是圣女是剩下的那个剩。(T . T)サイズ
It's ok. It's not end of the world...
距离2013年还有45分钟,希望这些垃圾统统会在今晚凌晨十二点时结束。(^_^)
祝我和大家的2013年会过的比今年更好。新年快乐x100000000000
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Friday, November 16, 2012


【迷茫时的8句话】

①先处理心情,再处理事情
②最困难的时候,就是最接近成功的时候
③不为模糊不清的未来担忧,只为清清楚楚的现在努力
④宽容他人对你的冒犯
⑤不要无缘无故的妒忌
⑥只为成功找方法,不为失败找借口
⑦不要看失去什么,只看还拥有什么
⑧用最放松的心态对待一切艰难。

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Saturday, September 29, 2012





- Yeah . Finally finish exam. Preparing to go to swissotel for my friend's wedding (;



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